Been long since I was last online.
Mom and Dad came down but most of the days were spent in our room, they kept falling ill and all (fever plus flu). Plus the not-so-good mood they brought since the moment they landed in Singapore.
So, the visit didn't leave much impression on me, let alone motivate me to work hard to make them proud.
If there was any effect, it was successful in boosting my ego.
Because they made it clear to me that my opinion about my own education would never be important enough to change their minds about what I should do for my future.
Since the very beginning, I have shown that I have no interest whatsoever in finance-related stuff or management. It is OBVIOUS that I am destined to do something in the field of Science or Mathematics. Even if I digress, I should be in some scientific fields such as engineering or medicine.
And they keep pushing me to take up some management stuff, some finance stuff, some economics stuff which I have no interest. Just because they want me to make it big in some MNCs.
And I've made it clear that life here is not fulfilling, is too lop-sided. I don't have enough emotional balance, don't have enough joy. I long for my lost and soon-to-be-over teenagehood. I long to be back there, where my roots lie, where my heart belongs.
Yup, and they came down all the way here only to say that I have to, at the very least, study in NUS. If I seriously don't want to, they don't mind sending me off to Canada or Australia and pay for my first year education, but I got to promise that I will win a scholarship/loan/bursary for the subsequent years.
Damnit, what's the point?
They just don't get me.
What the hell.
I don't care already, I don't evel feel like give my future education any thoughts. I don't feel like planning. I just leave it to flow, let God take over, I give up my control. Just do whatever I can do now, don't give a damn about what happens next.
Coz when I insist of controlling my life, SOME PEOPLE will just go and seize that control from me, as if I owe them something.

bye.. must go do my GP examples (wooopie been procastinatin'!)