two nights ago, a good friend, whose (sadly) friendship i doubt sometimes, composed this for me.. which kind of chased away all those doubts..

rain falls, thunder strikes.
still the sun is there for the earth.
to shine afterwards.
i fall, my heart breaks.
still you are there for me,
to help me.
you make me believe,
after gloomy and dark sk,
there is a colourful rainbow.

but to me, you are my rainbow,
'coz when blackness surrounds me,
i realise how colorful and beautiful our friendship is.

i whisper to the wind in this bland night,
i just want to thank you.

there is something weird about the way it was written (i think) but who cares yeah? i think.. it's really time for me to learn to trust again...

i flipped my two-year-old diary yesterday morning, and realized that there was some very dark periods that happen to me which could make me almost in tears just by reading it. however, at the same time it makes me treasure whatever i'm having now, and those dark periods serve a very important purpose as a reminder that, hey, life is not so bad today. you've been through worse stuff, so obviously you can handle this one.

yey. life is beautiful.