goodbye...

felt kinda funny for not letting friends know what i did this afternoon before going to times' book sale, but i still think everyone needs a bit of space for herself, a private zone which nobody shall step in..

it's nice to have friends around, to share bits of one's life with others. however, some things are better left unsaid --especially for a natural introvert like me :)

seek to understand, and you shall be understood. haha.

anyway, on another note,sometimes i think life is rather unfair.. no matter what position one takes, one is still the wrong party. at times, the damage done is irreversible; so besides the negative feeling experienced because of being blamed, one still has to bear the long-term sore due to destructed friendship(s).

i wish you could understand how difficult was my position. how it was made even more difficult by your withdrawal. how it took me months to get over it.. haha. even until now, i think i'm not completely over it.. the remains of the friendship stays with me; part of me don't want to part with it, still waiting for the time when the friendship could be rebuilt. i don't know why i insist.. perhaps because with you, i could have long conversations about literally everything and be sure that you are listening. and even the silent moments with you felt so comfortable. i guess a person like you is what i really can call a friend :) but i don't know whether you feel the same way.. haiya.