11:32 AM
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Wednesday, April 27
Woke up at 12.40pm (yes, PM) because my body just won't compromise a little that morning. Intended to go to school for lesson that day because I didn't want to miss physics lecture and GP video sessions; but even when I managed to make it up to ironing my uniform in the morning, I collapsed straightaway on my bed once I reached the room. Hmm. Perhaps even with a "bom" sound... Went to school for guitar, though, that being the very last day before SYF itself. After about two hours of practice, Meng dismissed us home, hoping that we would have a good rest and that we wouldn't be bothered by any tutorials to do. Haha. For the first time in dunno-how-many-wednesdays, we could reach home when sky was still bright and the dining hall was still buzzing with people. Haha. Ironically, though, I couldn't sleep early. Did a bit of Astro project here and there, and go sleep at about 12.30am. On days I should't sleep early, I sleep early. On days I should sleep early, I don't. Hah.
Thursday, April 28
Happily ironing my shirt and pants right in the morning (about 5.40am), and then proceeded to iron my ugly-cheapo blue tie which is half-crumpled already. Right before I pressed the iron on to the tie, I felt a tinge of fear, "what if I burn this?" but I quickly dismissed it as I thought crumpled tie would be equally as bad as burnt tie. My, how I should have trusted my intuition more than my logic! I pressed the iron on the mid-point of the tie and tried to move the iron along the tie when I realised.. it wouldn't move! I then attempted to lift the iron, and after a bit of addition of pulling force, I managed to lift it.. To my horror, a white patch was resulted right in the middle of the tie, because the blue fibre had all shrinked to the edge of the tie!!! DAMNIT. Of all unlucky day, why should it be that day?? So I quickly turned off the iron, grab my costume and ran to the room, with a surprisingly calm voice asking Fungus, "Do you think Meng is up? Do you think Meng is up?", grabbed my phone, started smsing, then only showed signs of franticness and started screaming. Hahaha. Was a really terrible morning!
The atmosphere was equally tense throughout the morning-afternoon practice session, especially with Mr.Leow asking us not to rush when playing. And it was still equally as tense in the bus, especially more tense in the SCH itself. But somehow, I wasn't nervous.. I was looking at other schools' costumes and admiring RJC guitar club's elegant and well-dressed members.. was admiring the features of SCH, too (there was this ethnic 'instrument' in the foyer just before we entered the concert hall) and the percussion instruments brought by other schools (their bongo was obviously VERY big and tall).
We then entered the concert hall, which wasn't very big actually, and played our pieces. I could feel (every one of us could feel) that we were playing at an extremely high speed. The best part, though, was the fact that Dance of Yao People was a combination of a high speed and low speed movements. We played the low speed at the speed we normally practice, but we played the high speed movements in a faster rate, so audience (and judges) could really see the contrast between the two! And the effect was "fantastic", as quoted by Jejes, who happened to be one of SAJC guitar club's member. Another thing was the ending of the song, which Mr.Leow had said as "always very good" which involved a lot of chord-tremolo, strumming, compounded by Ming Xiu's percussion, and of course, Mr.Leow's well-thought-of dynamics... it resulted in a "thunderous" ending, said Gina. The second song, Besame Mucho (Spanish, meaning I Want to Kiss You So Much) was very expressive.. as in, I could see all of us enjoying ourselves, immersing our souls into the song. Even "my son", Zhong Yi smiled all the way and shoke heads and was not, for once, a wooden block. THERE, I see how Mr.Leow's pick of songs had worked perfectly well.. one seemingly high-technique song (playing songs with a lot of varying tempo was not easy!), and one expressive, jazzy song.
But of course, I didn't realise all this at that point of time... all I could think of was that we were rushing, rushing, rushing.. can't we slow down, coz I saw Mr.Leow's face and hand begging us to slow down, but we couldn't do it.. and the comments he gave us right after the performance! "Dance of Yao was okay.. but Besame was a bit too rushed". Personally, I thought that we could do better.. I mean, we DID IT in Audi during rehearsals, why couldn't we do it in SCH?
The most nerve-wrecking part was, of course, when the result was announced. The emcee went by order of performance, which means that TJC, being the last performer, had to go through all the joys screamed by all other schools when their results were announced.. Then it started.. VJ..gold.. NJ..gold.. Hwa Chong..gold.. Tampines..gold ("shittt! how could tampines got a gold???" was the majority response among us).. Meridien.. gold.. ("whoaaaa! Mr.Leow's other guitar club got a gold!").. and then... RJC.. gold.. there, I realized, gold has been awarded to six junior colleges. And there were only fourteen or fifteen junior colleges performing in the competition.. is there a slot still??? Or damnit will we get silver instead?? SAJC.. silver.. GT hundred something (our register no).. (I was leaning my head on Pat's shoulder, fearing anything that coming out from the emcee's mouth).. TJC.. gold.. (a pause) with honours..
*SCREAM OF JOY AND SATISFACTION*
*TJ Cheerr*
*handshake and hugging session..*
Oh man, remembering all these, I could just CRY. It was too much. Gold, with honours! The only school (secondary and JC) in Singapore who got gold with honours! MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.
The bus ride back to school was super happy, everybody was gay and there were smiles and laughters and photo-snappings and all.. so FUN. Imagine the feeling of being the best in Singapore.
Me, Pat, Eng Hooi and Choong Yoon then proceeded to celebrate our victory by having dinner at Swensen's..... YUM.. and all paid by CY... I mean, we all borrow his money hahaha.
and here goes the thank-you list... for all the people who have helped me to pack dinner for me throughout the past four months, for those who have put up with the craziness i experienced after guitar practices, for hui lin the best CI ever who patiently teaches us besame chords and tremolofor the well-wishers, for eng hooi, pat and choong yoon for always being such a joy, for the besame mucho session in visitor's lounge, for my section members (pat, clara, hui lin, meng-minus-scolding, zhong yi, marcus),of course for my roommate who always (1) attempts to prevent me from sleeping right after guitar prac (2) never trusts me when i say "i'm not sleepy" (3) push me to do homework (4) buy maggie mee for me when i want, but (5) prevents me from eating more than two maggies per week, and to my loving parents who have bought me Firsty for my fourteenth birthday gift THANK YOU THANK YOU WON'T MADE IT WITHOUT YOU.That's all folks. I've been in front of the comp for one hour plus! I shall mug this weekend. The success of the guitar club was not without the sacrifice of my studies, you know..
9:33 PM
Monday, April 25, 2005
Have been days of practices and practices for the Guitar SYF this coming Thursday. I really hope we can achieve our target: GOLD. Anything less then I'd seriously be upset.
It's gonna be at SCH and we're the last guitar club to perform. Lalala. Goodbye to any opportunity of seeing other JCs' performances..
PE today was very 'funny' again, as the second session of the handball elective took place. It was a forty-minutes session of throwing and passing balls. Next week's gonna be Labour Day, so it's off PE, which means we can only get to attack next next week. Haiyah.
On another note,
SOMETHING HAPPENED TODAY. But I'm not disclosing what thing it is. Huahahahaha.
Not much of a blogger nowadays, am I?
3:41 PM
Thursday, April 21, 2005
Waiting for Physics "S" and seriously did not know what else to do. Hm. Perhaps should go buy newspaper soon, I haven't bought one today.
Will be getting SYF outfit today. A white shirt.
Will be having a one-hour sectionals after Physics S.
PASSED MY PHYSICS TEST! Wuahahhahahaha. To recall the fact that I didn't touch my notes, I feel super proud.
Passed my Statistics test, too.
Ah. But I failed my Chem test--which I thought was easy.
Isn't it obvious which subject(s) that I just can't get?
Joanne got a Bronzey-Silver-Bronzey for three events. Would you say an all-rounder? Three events, three medals.
Slept quite a lot recently and it definitely feels good.
But ate quite a few maggie mee also! Bad for body, bad for brain.
:( Spent fifty-five bucks only on guitar stuff. YUCKS.
Haven't been jogging for dunno-how-many-weeks! No mass PE = no running.
PE Electives sucked. Super silliated. Hope it gets better next week.
Bored of blogging. BB.
9:10 PM
Friday, April 15, 2005
PW Results have been released and I got a YUMMY band two! Bwahahahahhahah. Was so happy I decided to eat Pizza Hut for lunch with Asih, Winnie and Jazz. I mean, I was so scared I would get a band three, so when i finally knew that I obtained a band two, I was really relieved; even flying. Adrian got a band two, too, while Jia En and Kenneth got a modest band three. I have nothing much to say about those two, because mean as my following sentence will be, I think it's the truth: They deserve band three. I mean,
OBVIOUSLY PW didn't seem to give those two that much stress at all while Adrian and I literally went through hell because of that. Hmm. On second thought, I think Adrian's hell was worse than mine.
Anyway! Let's put the past behind us and move on. There's too much other stuff to worry about (relative to fretting): improving GP grades, Guitar SYF (28 April) and of course, "A" levels.
TJC Dance obtained "Gold with Honours" for SYF 2005! Wowww! Congrats, Chee Kiang/Chee K/Sick-Kiang/CK/Chiki. Don't remove your make up yet. I want to see you in make up! Wahahahahaa. Doll-like or what?
Hmm.. Statistics test was hard for me. Maybe because I didn't have enough sleep (or rather, didn't have good sleep), or it was simply one of those days when I became stupid. Haha. Maybe I flunked that test already :p Wooopsie!
Joanne's not in again. She's forever practicing her Wushu, leaving me rotting in the room!! :( Her competition's this coming week, so it's understandable. Still, I can't help feeling lonely, liao. Maybe go kacau EH and YH again tonight.. bwahahhaa. ANd gossipgossipgossipp!
9:41 PM
Thursday, April 14, 2005
Congratulations to myself for being placed in band four for GP combined-lesson. As a result, I gotta do one newspaper review per day. Nevermind. Will do anything to improve my language.
Hmm. I got back my essay (the one on limit on science, written last thursday) and I was really concerned. It's not exactly about the marks I got (18/50, which obviously is pretty bad, but is not unexpected given my state of mind when writing it), but more of the TONE of it. Discussed the essay with Mrs. Yong at the end of the class, and I was shocked to know that my essay made her believe that I am this self-centred free thinker who absolutely condones religions AND who begod Science. To top it all, she said that she had the impression that one of my paragraph sounded like "thrown in for the sake of saying that there exist these nuts religious groups".
SO, instead of being so concerned about the essay I'm writting, I took a step back and try to reflect during my "lonely bus ride" home. (Ummm actually not that lonely anymore coz I've got my wonderful wonderful MP3 player already! Bwaaahahahaha).
Have I changed that much?
Did this ****ing place really transform me to such extent?
I don't remember being this cold-hearted and practical. Thought I always more of the compassionate ones, with principles.
Cut it off. Apparently that's not the case. What have I been doing? WHAT? *knocks self*
Hmmmm...
CONGRATULATIONS TO SCGS SYMPHONIC BAND!
Gold for SYF 2005! GOLD GOLD GOLD, FIRST GOLD!
Bwahahhhahaaaa. How could I even think that it was impossible? It's Gold, man. If it's achievable for them, the used-to-be another silver band, even degraded to bronze four years back, then I should think it's achievable for TJC Guitar Ensemble, too.
Bwahahhaaaa. I'm so out of point.
Anyway. VERY HAPPY for them. So I shall work hard to achieve the same level of happiness, yesh? No ponning, No late-coming, All-focusing, And Please Do The Hand Exercise Before You Sleep.
Uh. PW Results tomorrow. Good luck to self. If I get a Band Two I'll be flying high in the sky already, who cares about the others' results. I swear my friday is not gonna be destroyed by whatever result I get.
Haven't had my dinner :( And it's 9.35pm already. Happy starving or maggie-mee-ing. Haiya, roommate! Hurry come back! I'm LONELY. Bwahahhaa. My roommate's name's Joanne, by the way. :p
Betta get back to my studying, tmr I've got my first statistics test. It should be managable. And I want to proove to myself that I'm better in this, at least, than [censored]. Maybe not for other things. Just this. Please.
10:25 PM
Thursday, April 07, 2005
School has nowadays been such a chore to me! I have to reallyreally drag myself up from bed each day, get a realllyyy good wash-up (like bathe in the morning) in order to get myself really in the "wakeywakey" mode. If this is insufficient, I have to gulp a cup of coffee early in the morning (or buy a can in school) to jerk my system up. Despite all these efforts, though, I still find myself half-dead in class.
VERY not interested with whatever the teachers got to say (well, maybe not mechanics or chem).
Don't feel like listening to them.
Don't feel like listening to friends' comments during GeePee.
Don't feel like correcting my tuts.
Sick of some of the teachers (talk toilet already).
Lectures are way too boring.
Schooooollll is baaaaaad for the development of braiiiiinnnnn.. so Einstein proved. And Nash. As in John Nash the mathematician in the movie A Beautiful Mind.
Sick and tireedddd.
The four-guitar-pracs-per-week does little but worsen things, actually.
Fortunately, there is always a lil beat of comfort knowing then when I head home (where home equals hostel), I'd be a cheered up a bit. Hahaha. Crapping with hostel gals is the way to go. Plus watching TV, coffee-ing with roommate or.. just laze around. Hahaz. If only I could take a one-month leave and come back to school without losing anything, I'd be more than glad...... I seriously need a break.
Hmm. Read de papers and Straits Times covered this Dheepan guy.. ok, not a guy but a BOY, 9 years old, whose limbs are so.. twisted.. outwards and strangely I straightaway felt so touched and moved, I burst into tears. Haiz.. here is a boy whose dream is as simple as walking with his own two legs, who has to learn for four whole months before he could hold a pencil and write (coz of his twisted palms), who has to be a burden for his family and has to live with that fact for the rest of his life. I mean, how painful it is to be in his shoes? To know that if your parents don't throw you out of the house, it's very good already because of the vast trouble you give them? Something inside is calling.. can almost hear it saying, "Do something! Do something!" but I don't know what to do! I guess it was the intuition of becoming a doctor creeping back again.. I mean, surely the medical science, given the rate it's going now, could give hope to such cases? Make the world better, guess that was the message. Haihhhh.. I thought I made up my mind to just give the medicine dream up, as what my parents have wished. But can I? Can I really give it upp?
When uncertainty strikes, the best policy is to just ignore it, and try to get movin with my life. Yes?
Yes.
11:55 PM
Saturday, April 02, 2005
I'm just wondering what is wrong with me?? I just can't stop laughing nowadays. Wait. Edit that. OUTSIDE CLASS, I just can't stop laughing. Whoever I am with, I just keep feeling HAPPY-RAINBOW-HAPPYYY. Suppose it's a good thing? But I don't seem to understand why I can't do that in class. Well, I just can't. LOOK AT THE PEOPLE LAAAA. I mean, except for some, the rest are BLEAH.
And what the hell is it with Chan Wai Lee? Fine, okay, I am a person quite undeserving of taking up 2-S paper subjects, because looking at my grades, it's just "like that only". But seriously, does he have to undermine me to that extent? Irritating. For his information, I never think he's smart.. he's just hardworking. Smart people will be someone like Paul or Kenneth or Benedict. Sheeeeesh. (quote enquote Winnie).
I don't care already la. Don't care about what others think. Don't care don't care don't care!!! Im happyyy being me.. Whateverrrr.. let's be an AP girl..