Hello bloggg! Ok, I admit that I've been preoccupied by manymanymany things (after all, i am a full-time student, so what's new?) and that I've been neglecting this whole blogging thing for quite sometime... That was bad, I know.. but with the spirit of new year shall we make a new start-off kick? (Am I like talking to myself??)

Okay, okay. I am bored to death. Well, almost, if I didn't find out that I can download songs using LOUSY hostel computers. Yes it is lousyyyy! Their speed of download is just the same with that I experienced using a dial-up connection at home.. But anyway, still can download! So it kinda make me, uhm, happy? It's amazing how simple stuff can make me happy. Sigh. Downloaded Green Day's Good Riddance (Time of Your Life) [DAMN NICE!!] and Ha Ha You're Dead [DAMN CUTE!!]; and I am seriously wondering, where have I been for not listening to Green Day's songs for the past eighteen years?? Ok, at least I didn't miss Linkin Park, right? Heehee.

Anyway. Vigorously trying to play She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5, and I kinda get the melody already (Fungshin was so happy when I taught her the melody hahaha.. It is simpler than what it sounds!) The strumming is another thing, though. My left hand is just not used to power chords (quote enquote Pat) and it keeps feeling tired after 15-30seconds of strumming. Counting Crows' Accidentally in Love sounds okay already, even to commoners like Elvina or Vega. And still have to figure out Shape of My Heart, Best in Me and I Do. Anyway. I think I really have to work on those songs.. otherwise how are we gonna play for V-Day? People pay $2.50 per song and that is precisely why we have to show quality! SIGH. Do I sound as if I overemphasize this whole quality thing?

Okay, talking about guitar, I really want a capo. Somebody buy me a capo. Purple one, or pink, would be cute. Thanks. Hahaha. No laaaaa... I actually can buy it myself but Plaza Sing's Yamaha seems so far away from this hostel...

Anyway.. Read this book that I borrowed from Jasmine titled The Student Body, a collaboration work of four ivy league graduates. Quite interesting--not as draggy as some books that I read before. Shall continue reading tonight. How about my tuts ya? And the S-paper work I long abandon? Where is my sense of responsibility? Sigh.

S-papers.. I am not quite sure whether I could keep them both.. I don't even know whether I want to keep them, actually.. Wait; correction. Okay, I know I definitely want to keep Physics S because Physics simply amaze me, but Maths S? Haiyoo.. I've been dragging myself to go for its lessons.. and I find it totally dead. Maybe becoz it consists of pure maths, which I don't find having much application, in my-reality kind of way.. That aside, there is really no point of taking one S-paper only. Right? So if I badly want the Physics one, I have to do the Maths one as well. Thinking about the selection test... and the fact that I currently have zero knowledge of the topics they taught.. Maybe I really can't keep them, but we'll just see...

Library Week is coming up and librarians are required to sign up for three days of activities; whichever days of the week we desire. As a result of having guitar practices on Wednesday and Friday, I have to go on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. So I guess next week is gonnabe a little hellistic for me?

For those who know who I am talking about, please don't gossip, okay? It's just that, I had a fell out with a very good friend last weekend. Basically it was misunderstanding... but I kinda see patterns formed during the course of my friendships with people. The complains have always been the same: I take too much, without giving enough. And it is purely in material sense of "take-and-give", which I, honestly, have never paid much attention to. I mean, I always think of friendships as something that transcends the boundary of the material world.. it is some kind of emotional attachment, a co-dependency. But I guess, judging from the responses I have been getting, it is really important to stop neglecting the material sides of it... This has happened more than once-or-twice during my JC life (which up to now lasts for a good 14months only). Perhaps it's the different backgrounds we are raised in.. perhaps what PM (Fungshin's nick for Papa-Mama) say about them being calculative human beings is aptly correct after all. Or is it just the individuality that grows at its fastest pace during this time, while searching for identity? I don't know. But this makes me ponder the relevance of having good, good friends.. I mean, rather than keep wounding those I consider good friends while my intention is really just to be good to them (sorry, running out of words here), and in accidentally wounding them I in return get hurt, I might as well have nothing to do with people, right? I mean, okay, be a good classmate, be a friend, be someone they can tag along and have fun and talk crap and all.. but nothing beyond that. Now, how about THAT?

I am still in search of the answer. I don't know.