Started off with running again today and my 2.5km has improved by thirty seconds, thank God. But that is really a trivial matter.. I don't really care.

I paid a visit to Sinyi's blog today.. she just made a blog and I guessed that the reason she suggested why people create blogs nowadays was very valid. How many of us have lost touch with our primary school friends? Secondary school? Friends overseas? And how blogs, by giving a space for the creators to share their stories daily, could give these long-lost friends updates.. to be moving on in life yet keeping in touch with the old peeps who used to share days, joy, disappointment, cry? It's so cool.. and I like the way she put it, "If daily rattles cannot keep friends in touch, nothing else can, right?".

Anyway. Yesterday night I happened to see Pat, Adrian and Stanley jamming in hostel's visitor's lounge. Okey, Adrian's skill is obviously better than Pat's, but I swear Pat is the most surprisingly self-motivated being I ever encounter! (I mean, Adrian learnt guitar since dunno how many years ago, it's no surprise that he is so good.) To think that she could play an electric guitar LIKE THAT while she only got acquainted to classical guitar in January and to electric guitar in June.. And look at the way she strums now! I believe she'll make it big, man. Such motivation in learning is a gift, I should say. I seriously think they' d gonna be rocking the house at Prom! Watch out, peeps!

Mom is driving me nuts. She just doesn't understand whatever I say and thinks that all I can do is not believing in her (read: rebelling). Gosh, to think that I have to spend almost a full two months at home.. I miss my siblings.. I miss mom and dad, but to think that I would have to stand her constant nagging and daily pettiness could make me faint already. Why can't she just trust me?

And if you are so reluctant to fetch me in Jakarta airport, WHY WOULD YOU ASK ME TO FLY TO JAKARTA INSTEAD OF RIGHT AWAY TO SURABAYA? WHY?? So I would have to loiter around in Soekarno-Hatta Airport on saturday night, the night before Hari Raya, ALONE, while she and the rest would just get their asses rested well at home to get physically prepared for the hecticness of Hari Raya, yes? And do they even think of how tired I would get having to travel from Singapore to Johor Baru (troubling my dear roommate, some more), from Johor Baru to Jakarta, and then from Jakarta to Surabaya? Plus the risk to get my things stolen in Soekarno-Hatta Airport, which I think will make my night so perfect. Thanks a lot, what a wonderfully supporting family I have over there.

Whatever la. I am just SO UPSET.. I start to wonder whether family is as necessary as society portrays them to be. Do I even need one?